On The Edge of Happy

I don't have the words to describe how I feel today. All I know is that I am crying and that I am angry at myself. The year was going so well, then BAM, here comes someone to ruin it all, to create ripples in my peaceful pond. Be strong. Focus on what's more important. Do not let your insecurity rule you. Have faith that there is someone out there who will love me for me, 2011 me with all my complications. There is a lead ball in my chest where my heart used to be :(